Bianca RealDoll

I first noticed the thread several months ago - Celebrity doll for sale (Bianca) My heart raced. Wow, I really need a high end doll for my documentary and this one has celebrity status. She starred in Lars and the Realgirl opposite Ryan Gosling and Gosling himself liked her so much he, himself, kept one of the four produced for the movie. And the price was bang on what a used doll was selling for so the Celebrity status was an added bonus. Looking at the movie's promotional photos, I didn't find the doll particularly attractive. She looked more like a Barbie doll than a Realdoll. But she WAS a celebrity AND the email confimation from Premiere Props confirmed that she was a fully functioning Realdoll. I dropped a deposit and made arrangements to pay the rest in 30 days after the shipping details had been worked out. The freight was a whopping $1666.50 door to door but guaranteed she would arrive save and was fully insured to back it up. I am Midiman and this is our story...

Bianca arrived today. But she is not complete. No eyes, no hair and much to my surprise, no female parts except for her tiny but oh so feminine breasts. I found myself calling her 'it' instead of 'she'. I know I have a solid legal case. She was misrepresented! But that is not the point. It has become a dream shattered...or has it? Maybe I should renegotiate rather than send her back. It will cost them at least $900 in return shipping, plus they will have to reimburse me for my shipping costs...it was their error not mine. Is she worth $1000 as a mannequin? Hmmm, I've paid out $4800 inc. the shipping. That's a big chunk towards a new Realdoll. Maybe I could get Abyss to work me a better deal in light of what happened and seeing she'll be in a documentary. Of course, she would have to be a Bianca, even though there are other combinations that would better suit my personal taste.

But fate is what it is! I find an eye donor in Jocelyn, my 1st PC who has been locked away in her crate for months following another 'dollmare'. But that's a different story. Perhaps some people just aren't supposed to have dolls. I remove Jocelyn's green eyes - not brown like Bianca had in the movie - and give them to Bianca. Then I gently lay the wig I ordered from Abyss on Bianca's head. Like the scene out of Frosty the Snowman when they placed the old silk hat on his head, Bianca simply came to life before my eyes. I look at her in her tattered nightie and dirt smudged body. She resembles a young woman who might have come straight out of a London bombing scene during the Battle of Britain. To my surprise, I feel compassion for her! At some point my 'it' has become a 'she'.

I gently sponge the dirt off her face. Her missing eyelash is in a plastic bag taped to her nightie.. So I removed the other half-off eyelash and place it in the bag with the other, intending to reattach both when I am up to the task. Reading the instructions on how to lift her from her crate, I choose the 'hug' method. I feel a flutter in my chest as I place my arms around her, coming nose to nose with such a beautiful representation of a woman. I hug her tight as I lift her carefully. Wow, she is not light. She seems so real. She has substance and I need to work out more. Bianca in Crate Bianca Sleeping I lay her down on the sofa and pose her as if sleeping. I stand, staring at her for a few moments -did I just see her breathe? My eyes are playing tricks on me during these intense moments. I touch her. She feels cold on the skin, but warm through her nightie. I bend over and look her in the face, the same face I touched noses with when I took her from her crate. She is different now. She is my guest - my new companion and playmate - Bianca Realdoll. My heart rate increases as my lips touch hers and I stand up and say to her - not aloud but via a conduit that spans the dimensions between doll and owner - Welcome to my home, Bianca. 24 hours later I find myself continuing to bond with her. Even my dog is bonding with her. Bianca and Sandy Every time I look at her, I want to walk over and touch her. Perhaps waiting is better. Time to get acquainted. I know of one doll owner who, in two months has not yet consummated their relationship. Perhaps, working slowly towards that special moment when man and doll unite totally, makes the moment even more special. It becomes a sharing of the pathway to acceptance of each other, rather than the dominance of man over woman. And then, when the moment is right, it happens followed by a deep satisfying sleep together. Two entities - one flesh, one silicone - united by passion and fantasy, but united just the same. So what have I learned? I have learned I belong to a passionate and loving community. They care about people and the world they live in. They are a diverse collection of everyday human beings that would rather make Love...than War. They are for the most part, peaceul people who care about one another and they care about their dolls! There are far worse communities to be part of. I'm proud to have been accepted into this one. I think I'll stay. And what of my surrogate companions? My Teddy Babes are the fun lovers. They are my comic book fantasies. They make me smile. They keep the moment light..they overflow with personality...cuddling being their most popular activity....They will always be a part of my life. But Bianca? She has an air of peace and serenity... innocence and beauty. She connects to a much deeper, inner part of me and my emotions. She is a serious companion for my serious moments. She can reach out, stopping the hands of time, if only for a few moments, to bring me sanctity from the stress and chaos of the real world. Note: Midiman is a composite character representing numerous doll owners interviewed by David Hockey. Midiman's opinions and experiences do not necessarily reflect that of David Hockey. That said, she is truly, the ultimate surrogate female :)

Before and After her Make-over.